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WWW Wednesdays: 4 August 2021

How did it get to be August already? July was a bit of a wash-out weatherwise, so I am hoping August will be a bit sunnier and I get to spend time sittingoutside in the sunshine.


WWW Wednesdays’ home is at Sam’s blog Taking On A World of Words. Check it out!

The three Ws are:

What are you currently reading?
What did you recently finish reading?
What do you think you will read next?


What am I currently reading?

I have just started reading Quell by Clare Littlemore. As far as I know it is the last book in the Flow series. It’s YA dystopian and I felt YA may be the way to go after my last read.

I also finally picked up the first book of The Masnavi by Rumi again. I am really enjoying the poetry and the stories created. Of course there are religious undertones, but actually the themes are very universal and it’s very wise. I want to curl up with it on a rainy day.

Finally, I am making slow progress on my audio book, which is Life by Keith Richards. I have gotten used to Johnny Depp reading it now. That took me a little while. I am enjoying it, but I find it funny because it’s much more coherent than I imagine Keith Richards’ brain and memories to be!

What did I recently finish reading?

Since last week I finished a couple of books. I finished reading Corelli’s Mandolin by Louis de Bernieres, which had a rocky start, but I ended up really enjoying in the end. I also read My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell, which was a tricky read for me. It made me feel quite icky.

What do I think I will be reading next?

I am not sure. Something off my Summer TBR probably. Maybe The Architect’s Apprentice, as I know I will love that one.

Books · Read in 2021 · Reviews

Book Thoughts: My Dark Vanessa (Kate Elizabeth Russell)

Well written, but very unsettling


Title: My Dark Vanessa
Author: Kate Elizabeth Russell
Genre: Fiction / Contemporary / Hard-hitting
First published: 2020
Edition: Kindle e-book

2000. Bright, ambitious, and yearning for adulthood, fifteen-year-old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane, her magnetic and guileful forty-two-year-old English teacher.

2017.  Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men, a reckoning is coming due. Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former student, who reaches out to Vanessa, and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice: remain silent, firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship, or redefine herself and the events of her past. But how can Vanessa reject her first love, the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager—and who professed to worship only her—may be far different from what she has always believed?


I am not sure I have ever felt this uncomfortable whilstr reading a book. This whole read for me was a decidedly unpleasant experience, but I also feel like it is an important read and one that could mean a lot to people.

The author is clearly a very smart writer. The way she paints a picture of this illicit relationship between a teenage girl and a teacher almost 30 years her senior is very well done. You feel the wrongness of it and yet you can also understand why fifteen-year-old Vanessa is drawn into this intimate relationship. I was especially impressed by the way the author never makes the teacher in any way alluring. Instead she makes it clear that he appeals to Vanessa’s need for being understood and being special rather than any sexual attraction from her side.

That does not change that I did not enjoy reading this much at all. It as a good novel, but the subject matter made me feel icky and disgusted. I also had difficulty understanding Vanessa’s actions as she gets older. I guess I am not meant to understand them as such, but still. I just found I wanted to give her a good shake. Maybe that was the whole point of the book. Besides, every person is different and I did not go through the experiences Vanessa did, so how could I understand?

I find it really hard to come up with a conclusion of how I feel about this book. The quality of the writing is up there. It’s just that it is not the kind of book I like to read. I am glad I read it, but I would not go out of my way to read similar books. It is simply not the kind of reading I enjoy and since I read for escape I need to get at least some enjoyment out of it.

Still, this is a good book and I would recommend this book, but I would warn that it is an uncomfortable read.

5 out of 7 stars

(Also see my reading diary of 2 August for some of my thoughts whilst I was reading this one. )

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Reading Diary: Monday, 2 August 2021 (My Dark Vanessa)

MONDAY, 2 August 2021

00.13 – What better time to start a reading diary than just after midnight?! I am hoping to get a chunk of reading done today/tomorrow, whichever I wanna call it – when I wake up! So, I thought a reading diary would be in order. This is also partly because of the book of I am reading at the moment.

On my Kindle I am reading My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell and man, do I have thoughts! I am about 100 pages in and although the read itself is not that hard, the subject matter is so, I don’t know, difficult? Tricky? Scary? I don’t even know how to describe it. Going in I had an idea what it was about, but the reviews had been so good, I thought I would read it anyway. It is about a young girl, 15/16, being groomed by her much older teacher. It’s weird to read it from her perspective and to see what she is thinking.

You get a glimpse at the girl at 32 and how she looks back at what happened to her. It’s painful, it’s worrying, it’s frustrating, but to be honest I feel very strange reading about her experiences as a young girl feeling flattered by the attentions of this adult man. It almost feels normal and that is the scary bit. It feels like a very important read, but I feel very icky about it.

I am impressed by the way the author manages to write sex scenes between this older man and this young girl without it feeling sensationalist or overly sexual. Vanessa’s point of view is strangely innocent and also quite clinical at the moment, which helps. But yes, icky, I feel icky reading it.

Anyway, it’s late. I’m going to bed, so I fill you in tomorrow when I have read some more.

08.27 – Good morning! I am about to have breakfast and I will start reading shortly after, I was thinking about this book and whether I am enjoying it. I don’t think this feels like the kind of book that you enjoy. It makes me feel appalled to be honest, and yet, it’s weirdly gripping and it does feel important. I haven’t looked up anything about the author. I wonder whether she wrote from experience or whether she talked to other people who had this experience, as it feels quite authentic.

Anyway, I will watch a YouTube video or two whilst having my morning coffee and breakfast. It’s a nice day, so I will be spending some time outside. We’ll see how much reading I will get done.

11.27 – I read about 30 pages so far. Not a lot, but after that I felt like I needed a break and ended up playing a bit of Animal Crossing. It’s nice to have a quiet day. I’m refusing to do chores right now 😂. Anyway, I will read a bit more until lunchtime. It’s a well-written novel, but it is leaving we with a rather nasty taste in the mouth, so I am not sure how I am feeling about it.

14.17 – I got aI got a good chunk of reading in since lunch, so I will take a break and take my daughter to go see her grandparents for a bit. I am still very much on the fence with this book. I admire what the author is doing, but I don’t like the way it makes me feel. I get it, and I think Vanessa’s dilemma is well fleshed out, but do I feel like I know Vanessa herself? No. And that feels weird. It’s like I am in girl’s head, who has no personality to speak of. Maybe that’s the whole point, that she has no life apart from the one she things she has with him. I am not sure. Maybe apart from the obvious that makes me feel extra uncomfortable. Right now, 60% into th ebook, I think I will make a prediction that I end up saying that I appreciate this book, but that it was not for me, because it is not right now. I read to relax and this book does not make me feel relaxed. It makes me feel icky and anxious. I should have known that before i started it due to the subject matter, but I guess I was curious.

20.52 – No reading since my earlier update. After a visit to my mum and dinner we have been enjoying the nice evening outside. I hope to get a bit more reading in tonight. Is it bad I want to get this book over and done with to move on to a book I will actually have fun reading? And yet, it’s definitely a good read. I just feel conflicted.

23.19 – Currently at 70%, page 259. I think I have about 100 pages still to go. I will read a bit more and hopefully finish it tomorrow, even if Tuesdays are usually my busiest day. I am not sure how many pages I read today. I try not to keep count anymore. Well over a hundred. That’s all I know and that is good going for me at this moment in time. That goes to show that I am picking the book up and I am intrigued by it and I want to read it, but it just makes me feel a bit unpleasant when I do. I still don’t understand Vanessa. I mean, maybe I understood why it started, but adult Vanessa and the older teen Vanessa I find harder to understand the choices she is making. But then that made me think about trauma and abuse and I know I have been lucky I have not experienced anything to this level, so maybe it is a good thing that I do not understand her. Like many I have been a victim to some sort of abuse, just not this type or to this level, but I do remember how I felt and reacted, which was very different from the way Vanessa feels. But then people are different and mine was nowhere near as serious as what is going in the book. Not that I am belittling what I went through, but at least I was an adult. As you can tell, this novel makes me think a lot about what the brain does with abuse, any kind of abuse, but this kind in particular. I praise the book for addressing the subject and to make the reader think. I am just not sure I want to… Does that make sense? Anyway, I am in too deep, so let’s see what happens in the final third of this book.

I will read a bit more and do a final update in the morning.

TUESDAY, 3 August 2021

09.18 – Just my final thoughts as I am getting to the final fifth of this novel. I think it was useful for me to do this diary whilst reading this particular book. I think I have said enough about how uncomfortable it makes me feel. Coming towards the end that hasn’t changed. In fact, it makes my skin crawl. Yet, the writing is really good, so I am still not sure how I will end up rating this. It’s a hard one for me.

Have you read this book? What did you think of it?

Balancing My Books · Books · Monthly Reading Wrap-Up

Balancing My Books #7: July 2021

I’m still down on my normal reading pace, but I am actually quite happy with what I’ve read this month. I bought a few more books than I have been, but not excessively so. I’m good so far.

Hardbacks/Paperbacks: 330
E-books: 183

Owned TBR on 1 July 2021

I clearly need to work on my digital backlist!

Books read: 8
Hardbacks/Paperbacks TBR: 
Hardbacks/Paperbacks 2021: 
E-books TBR: 2
E-books 2021: 0
Audio: 1 (owned in physical format, but not on TBR)

  1. Mr Loverman (Bernardine Evaristo) paperback (6*)
  2. A Sweet, Wild Note (Richard Smyth) hardback (6*)
  3. Perfect Tunes (Emily Gould) e-book (3*)
  4. Sugar Street (Naguib Mahfouz) paperback (6*)
  5. The Picture of Dorian Gray (Oscar Wilde) audio (7*) re-read
  6. The Song of Achilles (Madeline Miller) e-book (7*)
  7. The Devil and Miss Prym (Paulo Coelho) paperback (4*)
  8. Corelli’s Mandolin (Louis de Bernieres) hardback (6*)

 6 (3 read)

It was the first time I went to a charity shop in ages and I picked up four books there, including a book I had already read and loved, which was Born A Crime by Trevor Noah. Of the ones I had not read yet, I chose to read Paulo Coelho’s The Devil and Miss Prym.

I also bought two new books, as my friend got me book tokens for doing her a favour, which was very sweet. I bought a physical copy of The Song of Achilles, because I loved that one so much and I bought The Final Revival of Opal and Nev by Dawnie Walton, which I have been eyeing for ages. So yes, six books bought, but only three of those add to my TBR.


Physical TBR Balance Sheet
Start 2021: 330
Start July: 313
Added: 4 (6 – two I had already read)
Read: 5
Balance: 312

E-book TBR Balance Sheet
Start 2021: 183
Start July: 178
Acquired: 0
Read: 2
Balance: 176

I am unhauling The Devil and Miss Prym.



I did not read that many books, but the quality was pretty good! I re-read a favourite on audio, which was The Picture of Dorian Gray. That meant going off TBR, but was so worth my time. Loved it just as much as I always did. I also found a new favourite in The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller. I finished Naguib Mahfouz’s Cairo Trilogy (which I highly recommend) and also read my first book by Bernardine Evaristo, who I am sure to read more from!

There were a couple of books that were just ok, but overall I am happy. I am carrying three ‘currently reading’ books over into August, but that’s ok.


I had two 7* reads in July. The Picture of Dorian Gray is my favourite book of all time (In case anyone asks), but I think I will go for The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller for my Book of the Month. I simply adored it. Hence I ended up buying myself a physical copy to gaze at lovingly on my shelves!

Books · Read in 2021 · Reviews

Book Thoughts: Corelli’s Mandolin (Louis de Bernières)

Just chopping onions, really


Title: Corelli’s Mandolin
Author: Louis de Bernières
Genre: Fiction / Historical Fiction
First published: 1994 (Captain Corelli’s Mandolin)
Edition: Hardback, published by Pantheon

In the early days of the second world war, before Benito Mussolini invaded Greece, Dr Iannis practices medicine on the island of Cephalonia, accompanied by his daughter, Pelagia, to whom he imparts much of his healing art. Even when the Italians do invade, life isn’t so bad—at first anyway. The officer in command of the Italian garrison is the cultured Captain Antonio Corelli, who responds to a Nazi greeting of “Heil Hitler” with his own “Heil Puccini”, and whose most precious possession is his mandolin. Love is complicated enough in wartime, even when the lovers are on the same side. And for Corelli and Pelagia, it becomes increasingly difficult to negotiate the minefield of allegiances, both personal and political, as all around them atrocities mount, former friends become enemies and the ugliness of war infects everyone it touches.


When I started reading this one I was not sure what to expect. It is a modern classic, but I hardly knew anything about it. It took me a while to get into, but in the end I loved it.

I struggled to get into this book. It took me half the book to get into the writing and the story, but I flew through the second half. The writing style felt rather odd at the beginning, but once I got used to it, I actually really enjoyed it. It’s quite witty and dry and not without a touch of silliness. Yet, the book deals with heartbreaking events. Though the author admits that the book is not accurate when it comes to what happened on this particular Greek island, there is no doubt that the most grotesque atrocities were committed during WW II in Greece. Parts of this novel were harrowing to read. My heart broke several times over.

The story at its heart, about love that grows despite everything, is bittersweet, but made my heart glow. Maybe a part of me wishes that the ending had been a bit different, but maybe this ending was just right.

In the end I enjoyed this far more than I thought I would after the first quarter, especially since novels set in wars are not normally my bag. I would highly recommend this novel, but is not for the faint of heart. I do feel it is very much worth reading and the unusual tone of the writing only enhanced its story in the end.

6 out of 7 stars

Books · WWW Wednesday

WWW Wednesdays: 28 July 2021


WWW Wednesdays’ home is at Sam’s blog Taking On A World of Words. Check it out!

The three Ws are:

What are you currently reading?
What did you recently finish reading?
What do you think you will read next?


What am I currently reading?

No progress on The Masnavi by Rumi this week, but I am sure I will get back to it soon.

I am reading Corelli’s Mandolin by Louis de Bernières. That one is on my Summer TBR and it’s a bit of a modern classic. I am about halfway. I am enjoying it, but for some reason it takes quite a bit of effort to read. There is something weird about the writing style for me. I am not sure what I expected from this one, but I am liking it. It’s just a bit slower going than expected.

I have also not made that much progress with Life by Keith Richards on audio. I have just not taken much time listening to audio this past week.

What did I recently finish reading?

I only finished one book, which was The Devil and Miss Prym by Paulo Coelho. That one was a recent charity shop buy. It was fine. Just not one I will remember.

What will I be reading next?

I will probably look at my Summer TBR and choose something from that. I’m still quite in the mood for historical fiction, so I may stick to that genre for now. Which one should I read?

Books · Read in 2021 · Reviews

Book Thoughts: The Devil and Miss Prym (Paulo Coelho)

Engaging enough, but forgettable


Title: The Devil and Miss Prym (original Spanish title: O Demônio e a Srta. Prym)
Author: Paulo Coelho
Translator: Amanda Hopkinson & Nick Caistor
Genre: Fiction / Magical realism
First published: 2000
Edition: Paperback, published by Harper Collins in 2002

A stranger arrives at the remote village of Viscos, carrying with him a backpack containing a notebook and eleven gold bars. He comes searching for the answer to a question that torments him: Are human beings, in essence, good or evil? In welcoming the mysterious foreigner, the whole village becomes an accomplice to his sophisticated plot, which will forever mark their lives.


I picked this book up for next to nothing in a charity shop earlier this month. I am not sure why I bought, as the only other book I had read by this author was The Alchemist and I did not like that very much. But I did, and when I was a looking for my next read I just picked up the top book from the pile. This book has a lot of bad reviews, which I have to say is always intriguing!

Yes, this book very much appears to be a morality tale, with the battle of good and evil at its centre. It talks about God rather a lot. However, I also feel it is a social commentary on the way we are as people and I did not see it as overly preachy. The fact is, people are fickle, and really, the world is not so black and white. Good and evil are not so easily defined and I think that is partly what the author is trying to say.

I found this book very easy to read and the story did keep me engaged, even if it did not quite excite me. In the end I found it quite forgettable, but I do not think it is a bad book at all. It’s an okay book and I really did not mind reading it. Will I read it again? No, probably not, but neither will I shy away from reading another book by this author if it crosses my path. I still have one hiding on my shelves somewhere. I found it engaging enough. I just don’t think it is one I will remember years from now.

4 out of 7 stars

Books · WWW Wednesday

WWW Wednesdays: 21 July 2021

Wow, time is flying! Most of the way through July already!


WWW Wednesdays’ home is at Sam’s blog Taking On A World of Words. Check it out!

The three Ws are:

What are you currently reading?
What did you recently finish reading?
What do you think you will read next?


What am I currently reading?

I just started listening to Life by Keith Richards for my music book club. Johnny Depp is reading part of it and it’s unsettling me a bit. I like Johnny Depp and I know he is good friends with Keith, so it makes sense. I even like his voice. However, I am not believing him yet. But then, one, I have only just started, and two, I wonder how much of this book is actual fact!!!

I did not make much progress with Book One of Rumi’s The Masnavi. What I have read I have really enjoyed though.

What did I recently finish reading?

A really strong reading week quality wise!

I just finished writing my thoughts on The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller. A new favourite book. I loved it a lot!

I have finished Sugar Street, the final book in the Cairo Trilogy by Naguib Mahfouz. I loved this series. It feels like a real series of snapshots of a time and a place and a family. Very well written.

I also finished re-reading The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde on audio. Still my favourite book in the world. The writing is absolutely exquisite. Stephen Fry did a great job narrating it too!

What will I read next?

No sure yet. I will pick something shortly. I have a summer TBR, so probably something from that.

Books · Read in 2021 · Reviews

Book Thoughts: The Song of Achilles (Madeline Miller)

My heart, people, my heart!


Title: The Song of Achilles
Author: Madeline Miller
Genre: Fiction / Historical Fiction / Mythology
First published: 2011
Edition: Kindle e-book

Greece in the age of heroes. Patroclus, an awkward young prince, has been exiled to the kingdom of Phthia to be raised in the shadow of King Peleus and his golden son, Achilles. “The best of all the Greeks”—strong, beautiful, and the child of a goddess—Achilles is everything the shamed Patroclus is not. Yet despite their differences, the boys become steadfast companions. Their bond deepens as they grow into young men and become skilled in the arts of war and medicine—much to the displeasure and the fury of Achilles’ mother, Thetis, a cruel sea goddess with a hatred of mortals.


So yes, I will admit that I finished this book in floods of tears, a hallmark of a very good book in my humble opinion.

I had read Circe by this author and loved it, so I had been meaning to read this one for ages. I heard so many people raving about it! I do not know why it took me so long to finally read it.

As soon as I read the first page I knew I would love it. The writing is beautiful and the connection and relationship between Achilles and Patroclus is touchingly written. I admired Patroclus’ love and loyalty, even if Achilles annoyed quite a bit sometimes. What that boy needed was a really good slap. However, his flaws and the way Patroclus deals with them (or does not deal with them as the case may be), is what makes this story so compelling.

I loved how this story took well-known myths and shaped them into something fresh and beautiful to read. The ending broke and healed my heart at the same time – it was so perfect. The author has a great touch with words and weaves an incredible emotional story that will hold a bit of my heart for quite a while.

If you have not read this one yet, read it! It’s a thing of beauty.

7 out of 7 stars

Books · Read in 2021 · Reviews

(audio) Book Thoughts: The Picture of Dorian Gray (Oscar Wilde)

Still an absolute masterpiece on re-reading/listening


Title: The Picture of Dorian Gray
Author: Oscar Wilde  
Narrator: Stephen Fry
Genre: Fiction / Classic
First published: 1890
Edition: Audio

Enthralled by his own exquisite portrait, Dorian Gray exchanges his soul for eternal youth and beauty. Influenced by his friend Lord Henry Wotton, he is drawn into a corrupt double life, indulging his desires in secret while remaining a gentleman in the eyes of polite society. Only his portrait bears the traces of his decadence.


When someone asks me what my favourite book is I always mention this one, but I had not actually reread it for years. I figured it was time and what better way to revisit a favourite than by audio book, especially when it’s read by Stephen Fry. I am pleased to say I love it just as much as I always did.

Oscar Wilde’s prose is exquisite. There is something in the way he writes, the way he constructs his sentences that speaks to me. And I think the story, which centres around beauty and corruption and the way they influence each other, is endlessly fascinating. What exactly is beauty? Why do we crave it if it corrupts so easily? I think Wilde really touches a heartstring for many there. It was undoubtedly a subject that occupied his own thoughts more than was good for him.

I have never read a novel so full of quotable lines. It just makes so much sense. There is passion in this book, and disappointment. Tragedy, and admiration. It has the perfect beginning and the perfect ending.

Stephen Fry does a great job narrating this, which is no great surprise. He sets the perfect tone and made me believe the story and the characters.

Yes, if you ask me what my favourite book of all time is, I will still respond “The Picture of Dorian Gray”. Now I need to finally get on and read the rest of his work. If you have not yet read this classic, I urge you to read it as soon as you can. It’s a masterpiece.

7 out of 7 stars.